.Saturday, January 3, 2009 ' 2:07 AM Y
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lie and shit.
I hate how people lie and shit when you been there for them through thick and thin and all that type of dramaaaaaa when NO ONE ELSE WOULDA BEEN THERE, I've BEEN THERE with/for YOU. I was the only person there to pick you up when you fell, make you smile when you felt down, told you to NOT TO GIVE UP when others would put you down, gave you hope when there was none, and laughed at your jokes when no one else got them (HAHA) and would not.
I admit, I wasn't perfect just as much as you wasn't.. but together, it was perfect. No one's perfect, we just gotta make do with what we got and love 'em for who they are. I sure did. You would THINK that they could show you a little courtesy (I dunno if that's the right word I'm looking for but you get my point) or at least just tell you the truth about whatever after all that you two been through and shit. Guess I'm wrong... They can't even be straight up with you when you ask them a question you know, and you already know what the deal is but you just wanna hear it from them to see if they gonna tell you the truth or lie about it.
You ask them to be HONEST for ONCE and they go and lie to you!! and WHY?! What's the point in lying when it's gonna come out EVENTUALLY. Ain't nothing to hide or be ashamed about unless that person's trying to hide it from others as well. But yeah.. It's JUST me, LaNz.. you know the person who you've known to be there for you regardless of the situation. If anything, I'm the type of person to be HAPPY for YOU. I ain't gonna be bitter about it, at first, maybeeeee but that's just human nature (c'mon, you people know it too that you'd feel the same way) but being the person I am, I'm very forgiving and I'll take it in with open arms. YOU know that shit.
People got to make something soo little into something soo BIG when they lie, and it don't even need to be that way in the first place. Being HONEST to me about it or ANYTHING.. counts.. even if it may be about something that I won't like to hear but OH WELL right? At least I'll know the deal. I mean like, at least I'll still have some respect or whatever the hell that word is I'm looking for, for you, ya know because you were TRUTHFUL about it. I HATE digging the truth outta someone, I just WISH that they could grow the balls to tell me FIRST before someone else does. Quit frontin' and be straight up about it. I'd rather know the truth now than have it come to me later by others.
It saddens me to know that a person who you loved and trusted for soo longgggg can't be honest to you.. It just sucks! I just asked to know the truth.. a LITTLE HONESTY, you know and they can't even do that. Is that SOO MUCH to ask for, is it SOO MUCH to do? The fuck?? This really makes me NOT wanna trust people cuz of things like this. I'm ALWAYS being taken forgranted. You don't like being lied to so what the hell makes you think I like it? I'm just.. really disappointed in you.. I know you're better than that.
Please stop beatin' around the bush and stop acting stupid like ain't nuthin happening cuz da jig is up. It's been up!
Don't worry, you're true colors are truly shining brightly. They REALLY REALLY are...
...I just wish they weren't so shady..
Even after all that's said and done.. it's like I told you before.. * you'll always have a special place in my heart and I'll always love you no matter what. *
Always,
LaNz
